Santana’s Motherhood Journey
“I remember the first time I got pregnant, I made the decision to abort on my own.
But, the second time, I went to First Care and they gave me so many resources. They were super encouraging and empowered me to feel like this was something I could do and was the right decision biblically. I was scared, but not as fearful as the first time.
I think I took every class First Care offered. Aaron and I took the parenting classes, and I shopped in their little shop.
As my daughter got older, I definitely realized the gravity of the decision Aaron and I made to get married and raise our baby in the Lord. This was the best decision we ever could have made, despite the challenges. It became so fulfilling for me to have my babies and be home with them, nurture them, and raise them.
My last pregnancy, my baby was born weighing 2 pounds. When I held her in literally one hand, I lost it. As a mother, who now fully enjoys motherhood, I can’t believe abortion is a decision I made. But I try to talk to as many women as I can and share what the Bible says about abortion and share my own experiences, in hopes they will make the right decision, in regards to the life of their child.”
Letter to My 19 Year Old Self
By: Santana
You won’t believe what your life will be like in 18 years. You see God will give you a crown of beauty instead of ashes (Isaiah 61:3)! The word says that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. Along your journey through motherhood, you will decide to let go of the fear that came with being a young teenage mama & totally surrender to God. You will decide to take your hands off the wheel of life and allow Him to steer you…. To steer you wherever, whenever and however He pleased.
By the time you are 37, you will be living in the beautiful reward of that surrender. You will be living a life that is more SPIRITUALLY and naturally abundant than you could have ever dreamed of. And guess what? There are more children coming, through your physical body and through the Kingdom and you could’ve never dreamed of a life so full even if you tried.
So rest baby girl. You are enough and you are the exact mother God saw fit for Aniah and all the babies to come. My heart is just so full from mothering and I literally could’ve never imagined in my wildest dreams this is where I’d be.
~To the young mama out there not sure how you’ll manage, I’m telling you to surrender to God. He will help you manage and 5 children later I’m living proof of just that!
